Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Waiting on God


Since I´m the process of figuring out what on earth God wants me to do in Germany, I found that reading up on this topic has proven very useful and most of all encouraging. I shall endeavour to meditate on and force myself to remember what God said in His word, instead of being controlled by my ever-changing emotions and on what I think I know best.

I´ve also read a short article while googling for the above picture. It also talks about the same issue: Waiting on God´s blessings

The following excerpts are taken from Oswald Chambers..... "My utmost for His Highest"

- When God brings a time of waiting and appears to be unresponsive, don´t fill it with busyness, just wait. The time of waiting may come to teach you the meaning of sanctification. When it is a question of the providential will of God, wait for God to move.

- There is never a need to pretend that my life is filled with joy and confidence; just wait upon God and be grounded in Him

- "Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on His word" Isaiah 50:10

- Years of silence is not equal to God´s displeasure but
Years of silence = God´s discipline so that I will know God is REAL
. That I place my confidence in God Himself, not in His blessings

=> I know two Christian women personally, both of whom share a similar testimony. After 5 years of joblessness, both finally found a job "given by God" so to speak. One of them shared with me about how God spoke to her not to apply for a job at the beginning of the 5 years. Having said that, there was no more word from God about this for the next 5 years and she wasn´t 100% sure anymore if she should start applying for a job, amidst the pressure from the typical german society that a person should work to be useful. As it turned out, God opened a door for her to start working again after being silent for 5 years and it is truly where God wants her to be and a job that she didn´t apply for! Except that this job isn´t in Germany but in Hong Kong, since she and her husband relocated there.

=> Why did God say that? I don´t know! What I know is that my friend knew in her heart that she was being obedient to God by not working.
On one hand, I´m inspired by that, but on the other, I don´t want to wait 5 years!?!? And I rationalize that I don´t have the means to wait so long, cos Stephan´s working 4 days a week, with an expensive monthly fee for his tax course so it doesn´t take a genius to figure out what that means for our finances.

=> Reason why I´m sharing this story is so that I can share in my friends´stories and be encouraged that the same thing could happen to me too. And logically that makes sense, cos we believe in the same God and the same promises in the Bible hold true for all who believe in Him.

- One of the greatest stresses in life is the stress of waiting for God. If our hopes seem to be experiencing disappointment right now, it simply means that they are being purified. "Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10

- Perserverance = Endurance + absolute assurance and certainty that what we are looking for IS going to happen. Abraham´s self-sufficiency was destroyed in those 13 years of silence during which he grew past the point of relying on his own common sense.

=> On the job front, I´ve gotten rejected from every single company that I´ve sent my resume to since last December (about 10). That means that I don´t have any outstanding resumes anymore. Oh, Vapiano turned me down too - which I must add that other than the usual negative emotions of being rejected, I´m actually quite relieved that this happened. So I don´t have to go thru the usual dilemma of the "should I go, should I not" thing.

=> On the positive light, this means that my prayer is being answered. Cos I´ve been praying that God closes ALL doors and only opens one correct door. At this moment, that´s exactly what´s been happening! But on the other, its so frustrating! Ahhh...I wish I´m a computer and I can program myself to say "In case of rejection, praise God", "In case of acceptance, Hallelujah!". But what comes out of a saved-by-grace girl like me is "In case of rejection, sob! Why God? Aiyah, what the heck, they are not worthy of me anyways (after a few days on dwelling on my negative emotions of rejection, inadequacy, "What´s wrong with me?" crap). And in case of acceptance? - Dunno, haven´t experienced it yet really.

- God may give me a time spiritually, with no word from Himself at all, just as Jesus experienced during His time of temptation in the wilderness. When God does that, simply endure, and the power to endure will be there because you see God.

- Whenever God gives a vision to a Christian, it is as if He puts him in "the shadow of His hand" Isaiah 49:2. My duty is to be still and listen.

- Waiting for a vision that "tarries" is the true test of our faithfulness to God. Watch for the storms of God. The only way God plants his saints is through the whirlwind of His storms. Will I be proven to be an empty pod with no seed inside? That will depend on whether or not I am actually living in the light of the vision I have seen. Let God send me out through His storm and don´t go until He does. If I select my own spot to be planted, I will prove myself to be an unproductive, empty pod. However, if I allow God to plant me, i will "bear much fruit" (John 15:8)

-God´s rhema word to me:

"I, even I, am he who comforts you.
Who are you that you fear mortal men (the future, not having a job)
the sons of men, who are but grass,

13 that you forget the LORD your Maker,
who stretched out the heavens
and laid the foundations of the earth,
that you live in constant terror every day
because of the wrath of the oppressor,
who is bent on destruction?
For where is the wrath of the oppressor?

14 The cowering prisoners will soon be set free;
they will not die in their dungeon,
nor will they lack bread. (nor anything they need)

15 For I am the LORD your God,
who churns up the sea so that its waves roar—
the LORD Almighty is his name.

16 I have put my words in your mouth
and covered you with the shadow of my hand
I who set the heavens in place,
who laid the foundations of the earth,
and who say to Zion, 'You are my people.' "

Dear God, please help me to use your Word to overcome all the negative thoughts that invade my mind every now and then. Help me to find my identity in you amidst all the letters of rejection and the returned resumes. Help me not to be depressed and gloomy all the time, (cos I don´t want to be on a roller-coaster of changing emotions.... I hate that really) but to count my blessings everyday. I choose to put on "Jesus" and wait on you as I know that you are perfect in everyway and your plans for me are indestructable. I love you Lord and as the Psalmist says "Whom have I in heaven but you and earth has nothing I desire besides You", may this be the prayer of my heart today. In Jesus´name Amen.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Email to me the list of the 10 companies that you had applied as well as your Resume.

Will try to enlist the assistance of those Corporations whom I have contact with to seek any opening in their respective facilities in Germany....

Tough to go through lean times but necessary as it is the will of God..Just meditate upon God's words as Palms 1:2 states "But his delight is in the law of the LORD: and in his law doth he meditate day and night."

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